Yesterday was a Sunday...I loved Sundays...Going to church to see the girl that I was in love with...it was a habit...but that changed....ever since we dated and broke up.. but thats not what I feel like writing about today...
I usually download random music on Sundays...I came accross this song called Eat you alive...i could swear that i'd heard this song somewhere...couldn't remember though...it was quite a long time ago..
The same night I had a dream....and that's where the song came back to me...with the singer...and with all the fanfare...
There was this guy who performed on this very track...for a parish fest.. I know its not very befitting to be taking names on a blog..but I'm sure this guy wouldn't mind...
I was 17 back then...it was in 2009.... and I still have that clear picture of David on stage....I still remember what he wore...I remember the song...
He was tall.. he was cool... he had the crowd swaying...his friends screaming out his name..I wasn't really his friend... and I don't think I must have spoken to him much.. I knew a lot of his friends though...and he was quite an accepted guy... he was everything I wanted to be...
Well...David died...fell ill..i think he had malaria...that's what everyone said.. my friends tell me that it was due to all the smoking and stuff...they say his lungs were black...its been 3 years now..and everytime I think of him...its like me looking into a mirror..
I dunno...I'm 20... I smoke.. I drink..i have a lottt of friends...I'm pretty cool.. pretty known...I'm tall..got a tat..I play the guitar...I'm just everything that I wanted to be...however...I'm nothing that I needed to be....
my academics suffer..I'm not pretty keen of having a lott of friends...I don't actually want all of that anymore..and its stuck to me now...like a curse...I cant stop smoking...I drink...I've tried drugs...
I cant love anyone anymore...fuck! I cant love myself.. for starters...I have no reason to exist..I have no one...nothing to live for...
Life may not be hard on me at the moment...but I suppose my hallucinations are the only things that will have to get me by...
I usually download random music on Sundays...I came accross this song called Eat you alive...i could swear that i'd heard this song somewhere...couldn't remember though...it was quite a long time ago..
The same night I had a dream....and that's where the song came back to me...with the singer...and with all the fanfare...
There was this guy who performed on this very track...for a parish fest.. I know its not very befitting to be taking names on a blog..but I'm sure this guy wouldn't mind...
I was 17 back then...it was in 2009.... and I still have that clear picture of David on stage....I still remember what he wore...I remember the song...
He was tall.. he was cool... he had the crowd swaying...his friends screaming out his name..I wasn't really his friend... and I don't think I must have spoken to him much.. I knew a lot of his friends though...and he was quite an accepted guy... he was everything I wanted to be...
Well...David died...fell ill..i think he had malaria...that's what everyone said.. my friends tell me that it was due to all the smoking and stuff...they say his lungs were black...its been 3 years now..and everytime I think of him...its like me looking into a mirror..
I dunno...I'm 20... I smoke.. I drink..i have a lottt of friends...I'm pretty cool.. pretty known...I'm tall..got a tat..I play the guitar...I'm just everything that I wanted to be...however...I'm nothing that I needed to be....
my academics suffer..I'm not pretty keen of having a lott of friends...I don't actually want all of that anymore..and its stuck to me now...like a curse...I cant stop smoking...I drink...I've tried drugs...
I cant love anyone anymore...fuck! I cant love myself.. for starters...I have no reason to exist..I have no one...nothing to live for...
Life may not be hard on me at the moment...but I suppose my hallucinations are the only things that will have to get me by...
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