Suicide

Hold my hand and touch me in places that feel a little weird...
Bring it on, the lights are dim and we're alone..
Kiss my lips and feel me in places that I feel a little strange...
Cause your the only one who's lurked in these waters with me..

The drugs are cheap, the booze is great,
but I feel like I need to go away, go away..

Its too late now, I need to leave,I feel like,
I need to die! I need to die! need to die!!!
Its to late now.. I need to fly,
I feel like, suicide! suicide! suicide!!!

Empty pillows are what I hate the most to see...
Every night as I sleep without you, the thoughts keep killing me, killing me!!
I am singing, but you pretend like you didn't see me...
In a room filled with monsters and angels..need a razor blade...

The drugs are cheap, the booze is great,
 but the thoughts of you killing me everyday, everyday, everyday....

Its too late now, I need to leave,I feel like,
I am to high! I need to try! need to die!!!
Its to late now.. I need to fly, I feel like, suicide! suicide! suicide!!!

neon...

They say they found me dreaming,
They say I was not breathing…my pulse was lower than the drippings from the dome…
My only source of elixir…
They say I was down by the neon lights…
My head was heavy and my spirit was low…
I knew what had happened, but they knew even more…
Cigarette buds were fallen all around me…The blood from my wrists, anointed the ground…

Absinth is not supposed to be drunk pure, she told me…

Jane was always merciful…throughout the twenty-seven winter days that I lay dead….
I was really disturbed after the night I tore her apart…
Dreams had never been this intimidating….
I kept flying…I had no aim….
The cold breeze was never my friend…I had no soul to blame…
I’ve grown old…but I never grew intelligent…
The walls were too thick for me to walk through them…
I was asked not to crush but to embrace them…
I stopped, as I hear a serpent singing hymns…
It never really made me snivel like that…
I sat right there under the neon lights….
The guilt sweetened the pain of the knife…as it travelled smoothly across my wrist… 
Blood dripping…as the spirits left my body…
The air was filled with the scent of rotting meat…
Gods chapel was no longer sacred…
Parasites drank my nectar….
The neon lights were divine….
The light left my eyes....